Geral Blanchard, LPC, is a psychotherapist who is university trained in psychology and anthropology. Formerly of Wyoming and currently residing in Iowa, Geral travels the world in search of ancient secrets that can augment the art and science of healing. From Western neuroscience to Amazonian shamanism, he has developed an understanding of how to combine old and new healing strategies to optimize recovery, whether from psychological or physical maladies.
MDMA and Epiphanies
Geral T. Blanchard • December 11, 2021
Being administered pure, clinical grade MDMA is likely to reduce symptoms of trauma, post-traumatic stress, and post-traumatic stress disorder, especially when relationship issues gave rise to the pain.
Many persons, however, report an additional reward from the medicinal experience, namely a profound spiritual awakening. It results in a radical departure from old and inefficient ways of being in the world. In their place are new emotions and beliefs that tend to be very clear sighted and uplifting, what some call an epiphany.
One of the most fascinating factors is how suddenly a shift can occur. In his book, The Holy Shit Moment: How Lasting Change Can Happen in an Instant, James Fell somewhat lightheartedly looks at the elements that comprise a rapid psychological transformation. Fell finds himself in agreement with Oliver Wendell Holmes who said, “A moment’s insight is sometimes worth a life’s experience.”
For a life-changing holy shit moment to strike, you need to have many pieces of the puzzle, and possible solutions, floating in your brain all at once. When they are in the mix and congeal under the influence of the medicine, an internal wisdom frequently arises. This capacity is built into us and can be fertilized. Hence all the handouts and books that are assigned pre-epiphany. The ideas are put on standby, incubating, ready to be tapped when the ego (left-brain activity) quiets down thanks to the medicine. Then the big picture perspective suddenly shows up as an aha! moment, a new story comes online and the rest is a reset of history. It can arrive in quiet subtle form or as a BAM!
As a result of an enlightening vision that comes beyond cognition, dramatic mental reorganization can occur. It is not about a rational and analytical decision as much as it is an awakening. You have now gone beyond the old and ineffective pattern of analysis paralysis. It is when the rigid controls of the left-brain are relaxed by the medicine, lightning can strike. In fact, it strikes more often when we aren’t working on a problem, often when distracted from the problem. Relational solutions tend to show up at unfocused times, when walking the dog or, like Einstein noticed, during the dreams of our sleep.
I’ll quote Fell directly as he gets right to the point: “While a life-changing epiphany feels like it is something that happens to you, the preparatory work, along with your life experiences and deepest desires and understanding of your true self, help ensure it was something coming
from you. This isn’t an outside agency acting upon your brain;
this is your brain.” With it comes an overwhelming feeling of clarity and
rightness.
A deep set of truths from deep within have been unleashed. And this is why the shift in perspective and feeling lasts – because it resonates so well with our deepest self.
It’s not that the medicine lingers in your system for months or years, it is that a bigger and more accurate worldview gets a foothold and serves to guide you well thereafter.
We also know that a hopeful and positive mood can stimulate an epiphany. That’s the generative result of the chemicals released by your body – the amphetamine, dopamine, serotonin, oxytocin, and norepinephrine. They are the chemical part of a complex substrate – the underlying marinade and foundation for an epiphany of wisdom to rise up.
Common takeaways sound like this: “Oh shit, man! I don’t want to be that person anymore!” Or, for a religious person it may sound like, “I don’t believe this is what God put me on Earth for.” It is an overwhelming sense that the ground has shifted beneath you and now you are on more solid footing. So when a quantum leaping rhinoceros crashes down on an epiphany landing pad, it’s going to make an impression.
In William Miller’s book, Quantum Change, he explains there is a bimodal distribution, by which he means the epiphany on one end of a continuum is filled with “insightful” conclusions, while on the other end is marked by something “mystical.” Curiously, most of the people Miller wrote about who had this kind of experience weren’t often religious. And none of them described a return to an old way of being! They were done with it. Moving on.
The point of this handout is to extend an invitation to your epiphany. If you desire such an outcome, a pilgrimage is in order – one occurring in your mind as you read and study ahead of time, the other when you board the plane to come to Charleston, London, Boulder, or Des Moines. Set out for new territory of mind and body and see what happens.
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“A ship in harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are built for.”
- John A. Shedd
“Good sailors are made after being on rough waters.”
- Zimbabwean proverb
“Life is a series of collisions with the future.”
- Jose’ Ortega y Gasset in Meditations on Quixote.
“One does not become fully human painlessly.”
- Rollo May, psychologist
“A mind is a system of ideas, each with the excitement it arouses, and with tendencies impulsive and inhibitive, which mutually check or reinforce one another…But a new perception, a sudden emotional shock, or an occasion which lays bare the organic alteration, will make the whole fabric fall together; and then the center of gravity sinks into an attitude more stable; for the new ideas that reach the center in the rearrangement seem now to be locked there, and the new structure remains permanent.”
- William James, father of psychology, circa 1936
“Examine your life. And it will never be the same, because when epiphany arrives, the real self and all its accompanying values of your true identity are unleashed from the false cage you [previously] constructed around it to get through each day.”
- James Fell in
The Holy Shit Moment!
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