Geral Blanchard, LPC, is a psychotherapist who is university trained in psychology and anthropology. Formerly of Wyoming and currently residing in Iowa, Geral travels the world in search of ancient secrets that can augment the art and science of healing. From Western neuroscience to Amazonian shamanism, he has developed an understanding of how to combine old and new healing strategies to optimize recovery, whether from psychological or physical maladies.
MDMA - the Trauma of Awakening to Trauma
There can be two levels at which trauma is processed.
The first tier may be a time of quiet denial or the dissociation of nearly all thoughts of how painful the past was. The body feels it, but the mind does not speak it. On the second level a person awakens to the entirety of it, often an unpredicted and sudden onslaught of previously suppressed details with extensive associated pain. When trauma is reconstituted at the second level it often happens unwillingly. A person may be swept away by an awakening that seems very ugly. It feels like too much to absorb in its entirety. The result is often to feel afraid, even shattered – at first. Now with everything out in the open, what must be done with it?
At the second level of awareness, it is almost impossible to go on pretending that everything is fine. No longer can the visuals and emotions be kept submerged. One wonders, “Damn it, will I ever get better?” That part of oneself abandoned years ago, that part which was paralyzed by dread and over-controlled behaviors, is now at a raw level of vulnerability perhaps not known perhaps since childhood. There is the panic of breaking out of secrecy with its isolation because of the risk of feeling mortified, broken, and ashamed. Yet a heartfelt need for understanding, acceptance, and support is also desired. What to do?
The child inside clamors for a form of dependent parental care, the kind that was unavailable in early developmental stages. Now the awakening adult victim, beset with floodgates of memories opening, wants and almost demands to be cared for by someone resembling the parent they never had. In the process, they can drain the vitality of people close to them creating reactions that lead to further isolation.
This is often a time when MDMA can be helpful as it calms emotions while examining newfound memories of pain. The medicine seems to assist people in the process of partialization, slowly breaking down events to “bite-size” chunks of insights and understanding.
In this way the patient is less likely to feel overwhelmed as the attending psychotherapist slowly titrates information into the psyche. Together the therapist and attendant provide a safe container – setting – to excavate dark memories while, at the same time, bearing witness to events thereby validating them.
One of the helpful factors MDMA affords is its knack for ferreting out truths, not falsehoods, exaggerations, or confabulations. Eventually some of the drama that often comes with a blast of unpleasant visualizations is tamped down. Exploring recovered details, without any therapist contamination of facts, allows a person to get past the fear and judgment stage and closer to resolution. When this process unfolds in a sacred ceremonial environment, the set and setting yield helpful insights regarding the motives of all the actors. And with it the chance for the release of undeserved guilt along with a healthy integration of the trauma.
During this reverent and well-managed process, the vagus nervous system quiets down. It doesn’t run away with its usual agenda of exaggerated emotionality and the misreading of social information. With this calming, defensive walls drop in accord with just how much information a person senses they can grapple with at the time. Victims often move from denial, to recalling or even inviting, challenging information. Not only can they safely immerse themselves in the recall of “dark nights,” they can move away from the false sense of normalcy that had previously been worn.
Psychological defense mechanisms and coping methods (including addictions) are now seen more accurately, as short-term fixes that helped them get by day-to-day but did little to heal underlying wounds. This healing process becomes an “inside job” of the heart and the mind working in coordination with each other. To fully heal every victim, as trauma expert Judith Herman taught, they must “see the damage” first. The bravery required, accompanied by the softening effects of MDMA, is unlikely to result in dysregulation. There will be fewer dramatic mood swings, less defensive anger, less shame-based rage. A possible soul retrieval.
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“Your vision will become clearer only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens.”
- Carl Jung
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