Geral Blanchard, LPC, is a psychotherapist who is university trained in psychology and anthropology. Formerly of Wyoming and currently residing in Iowa, Geral travels the world in search of ancient secrets that can augment the art and science of healing. From Western neuroscience to Amazonian shamanism, he has developed an understanding of how to combine old and new healing strategies to optimize recovery, whether from psychological or physical maladies.
MDMA, Morality, and Forward Thinking
Geral T. Blanchard • August 21, 2023
Traumatized persons, with their pervasive pain, typically seek mood altering experiences.
This can include ascetic restrictions, hedonistic over-eating, chemical dependency, sexual dependency, sexual anorexia or celibacy, romance addiction, relationship dependency, compulsive gambling, TV or movie binging, rock climbing, auto racing, reliance on antidepressants and/or antianxiety medications, religious addiction, and so much more that can serve to pacify, distract, and avoid unpleasant thoughts and feelings. By thrill-seeking, the higher the risks being engaged, the greater mood alteration one can experience. It’s a big dopamine splash and more.
These are the adult versions of childhood thumb sucking, according to Dr. Harvey Milkman, the author of Craving for Ecstasy (the feeling of ecstasy, not the drug). Harvey pointedly said, “Growing up consists of finding the right substitute for your thumb.” Harvey clarified: “Dependence means that after repeated exposure to an event that decreases neuronal activity in the brain, a person leans on that experience in order to feel adjusted or normal.” Dependency is about getting “hooked” on an indulgent satiation activity (calmative) that covers up subjective distress. That distress may have its origins in childhood abuse, a natural disaster, interpersonal violence, chronic illness, and so on.
Unfortunately, with most forms of dependency, a person will make decisions that are deceptive, manipulative, and may harm themselves and others. That can lead to immense guilt. Further, if one is labeled as an “addict,” shame (the sense of absolute worthlessness) can kick in. Morality takes a back seat to the power of dependency. Making amends or apologizing, which is a fundamental tenet of 12-Step programs, may assuage some guilt, but the more difficult task is to challenge core shame that is developed by feelings of being damaged goods and deeply flawed – whether from early life abuse or from circumventing societal and personal morality.
MDMA can help people face the dereliction of their personal values and interpersonal code of conduct. It does so by softening the powerful emotional attachments to harsh judgments which, if left unchallenged, only increase self-disdain and promote an addictive cycle. MDMA doesn’t lower standards but lowers defensive walls and with it, denial. This cunning and gentle empathogen can help a person stare down their wearisome acts, errant thinking, and self-persecutorial lambasting.
Next, many patients reset their core sense of self by owning their mistakes and hurtful ways with absolute clarity, no minimization. Simultaneously they make a commitment to face all that is difficult and frightening in their life post-trauma, while simultaneously reaffirming their deepest core values. In this way they realize not only how they have violated others, but how they dishonored their best and most virtuous parts – the result being shame. Patients discover something richer, more treasured, and worth living for, namely their “golden shadow” that Jung wrote about.
Discovery of the divine that lives in all of us provides a reboot to life. With that as a supportive and guiding force, there isn’t such a compelling need to hide, isolate, lie, and distract oneself. What was once a breakdown is now seen as a potential shift-up.
A more thoughtful, insightful, and nonautomatic self begins to emerge during a ceremonial MDMA treatment which, ideally, is followed by regular psychotherapy. Because MDMA does not cause a loss of conscious awareness, it allows for a self-examination of the kind not previously attempted. Before there wasn’t the courage, or even a template, for this kind of work.
During an MDMA session, patients counsel themselves. Later they use a psychotherapist’s collaboration to further uphold the insights and guidance acquired. Therapy keeps resuscitating all that is the best in this person, meaning a core authentic, secure, and innocent set of virtues previously smothered and squelched during their childhood -- a time that was filled with confusion, fear, betrayal, and injury. For optimal results, the patient must always work harder than the therapist.
Beyond that, there is the matter of becoming a substantial moral being, by one’s own standards which, when “under the influence” of this truth-revealing medicine. The medicine promotes pro-social activity and enhanced compassion for others, but also for oneself. Remember, this is an empathogen, a relational medicine that helps social beings become more social, less selfish.
Ending the Faustian bargain with the devil, much to the patient’s surprise, next comes this realization: It is the goodness uncovered in me that will deliver me.
Paradoxically, old scaffolding of supportive yet codependent people -- external sources of support -- are nowhere near as useful as what you will resurrect from within your core being – that same place where shame arose. Ironically, shame can be seen as arising from violating one’s own values – that best part of themselves. While they never intended to look inward, deeply, it was during a lonely “dark night of the soul” with its painful reckoning, that they realized they must deliver themselves, free themselves. This comes with less reliance on others, and with that comes a humble pride, the opposite of shame.
Virtually every shame-based person has not only become angry at others -- who might have seen through them, or confronted them, they have unmercifully raged in their direction. That only leads to more shame because the “loved ones” become abused ones. With assistance from MDMA, shame diminishes, and with it, associated rage declines too. That’s the way of it.
Maybe at this painful time in their life a comprehensive self-examination and thorough healing may occur. The isolating sense of “I” can be replaced by a connecting “We.” As Muhammad Ali said, “I went from ‘me’ to ‘we,’ and then to ‘whee!’” He went from being an angry pugilist to a world statesman. It’s in all of us.
May the light of your true spirit break through.
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