Geral Blanchard, LPC, is a psychotherapist who is university trained in psychology and anthropology. Formerly of Wyoming and currently residing in Iowa, Geral travels the world in search of ancient secrets that can augment the art and science of healing. From Western neuroscience to Amazonian shamanism, he has developed an understanding of how to combine old and new healing strategies to optimize recovery, whether from psychological or physical maladies.
MDMA and Shadow Work
Geral T. Blanchard • July 25, 2022
Patients who request psychotherapy assisted MDMA treatments are propelled into this type of healing work when other methods of trauma recovery were only partially successful.
In part, the guilt from being stigmatized by abuse naturally prompts victims to shine a spotlight of exposure onto those persons who have caused the interpersonal harm.
Intrapersonal examination is a necessary prelude to resolving traumas that others have inflicted on us. Unfortunately, conventional forms of trauma therapy customarily begin with interpersonal exploration, focusing attention on the dark and hurtful forces of the world residing outside of us. If a person isn’t careful, they can almost gleefully delight in condemning and punishing others, pointing out another person’s flaws and, thereby, never spotting their own dark side, the shadow as Jung called it. In this way a victim can trip themselves up on the path to recovery.
Therapists are often too eager to align themselves with their victimized patient’s agenda staying stuck in the necessary, but time limited need, to work on proper attribution of responsibility. In the quest for deserved justice, and to relieve some patient guilt, this frequently enjoins healers in a somewhat satisfying “bashing ceremony” when all evil impulses are vociferously projected almost exclusively onto the “other.” Along with this initially well-intended collusion, therapists may also tiptoe around shifting the spotlight back on the victim’s own shadow side, feeling like by doing so they might be disrespectful or disloyal.
In the traditional indigenous world, some people have used the terms windigo and wetigo. A modern conceptualization of wetigo refers to a mind virus that serendipitously spreads from a culture’s collective unconscious into an individual’s mind. It is this clandestine mental virus that causes a person to disavow and thereby never know themselves completely.
Having a perpetrator in one’s world has to be addressed, but at some later point the opportunity to know the dark parts of ourselves is what will propel the greatest growth. Staying stuck in wetigo -- with the spirit of righteous resentment and a desire to punish -- inadvertently feeds one’s own dark side. When that happens we become a threat to ourselves, we can become possessed by this concealed virus.
Psychologically, the shadow can be regarded as the undesirable, inferior, and unexamined aspects of one’s personality – the parts of us that can cause harm to others. These repressed and unappealing facets can fuel unhealthy behaviors, unless or until we come to recognize and own them.
Being victimized can focus the conscious spotlight on external factors, the not-self, the bad guys, and unresponsive systems. While they merit attention and justice may have to be applied, an exclusive outward scrutiny – including projection – can further distance us from ourselves. When that happens, and the more a victim identifies with a sanctimonious bright persona, the more destructive their own shadow becomes; they unwittingly feed it. The longer a person stays trapped in a victim identity, the more arduous it becomes to grow.
Therefore, it’s important following abuse, that wounded persons do not re-victimize themselves by getting lost in a victim identity. The original traumatic experience, if addressed in a comprehensive fashion, can bring victims back home again, full circle, when they have the privilege to meet their complete self, warts and all.
Guilt keeps many people from waking up from their reactionary stance to trauma and moving into self-reflection. In a binary worldview of “good guys” and “bad guys,” a searching and fearless self-examination doesn’t clamor for attention. Positioning all evil outside of ourselves is the sign of an unhelpful entity working within – wetigo. And pesky unconscious feelings of guilt are not only a major cause of our shadow’s habit of projection – assigning our own worst attributes onto others so that we don’t have to look at ourselves – too often, however, victims can become far too eager to assign their abuser’s worst traits onto themselves. He becomes me.
The abuser can awaken a victim’s fears of their own darkness which serves to postpone honest personal reflection, and with it, healing. It’s like a form of self-flagellation or expiation develops. And this usually occurs with insufficient evidence. In an uncanny way, victimization can cause a person to lose track of themselves should they become obsessed with abusers. The process can stunt personal development.
If we don’t look at our shadow and our guilt (for things done or simply fantasized) we may always walk around in a frightened “deer in the headlights” trance and, just below conscious awareness, we may find ourselves replaying a tape -- a monologue of our fears of being found out and exposed as the fraud or imposter we subconsciously believe we are.
So, trauma can be inflicted by others and it can be self-inflicted too. Either way, two perpetrators can get involved; in football parlance it’s called “piling on.” To avoid this diversion from recovery, awakening to the deeper recesses of our psyche is critical to full healing.
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During an MDMA three phase treatment, quite naturally the starting point is to take an honest and kind look at ourselves – the intrapersonal search. In the second treatment, once we have gotten to know ourselves a little better, focus can move more into interpersonal realms. Finally, in the third session, some patients explore their bigger and more expansive position in the animal world of relatives, into the world of their ancestors, or in the vast universe. In this process they step out of the spell of the wetigo, the collective psychosis of the world and into a more real, sacred, and safe world.
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“The indigenous people have been tracking the same ‘psychic virus’ for many centuries calling it wetiko in Cree, windigo in Ojibwa, a term that refers to a diabolically wicked person or spirit who terrorizes others by evil acts. The wetigo parasite feeds on and harvests the emotions of fear and terror. Terror is the cause of its insidious ‘ill-usory ill-logic.’ In wetiko disease, the psyche takes the terror that haunts it from within, and in its attempts to master it, is unwittingly taken over by it, thus becoming another instrument of terror in the world. We have then become the very thing we most feared, as we psychologically terrorize ourselves.”
- Paul Levy in
Dispelling Wetiko: Breaking the Curse of Evil
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